From behind the darkness....we have to find "new normal"

It's incredible how time can stand still, rewind, or fast forward and catapult us into the future, within seconds.

I realise that sounds a little ass about face. (Let's be honest, most of what I say sounds like that at times)

Life for me recently has been measured in earthquakes, and Richter Scale.

I can guarantee that I'm not alone, but fleeting thoughts have made it feel that way.

Finally nearly 3 months since the emotional devastation of the February 22nd earthquake, my emotional balance is starting to return....it's not that I went crazy, but the dark clouds that enveloped my thoughts, the sleep deprivation and trying to keep the emotions and confidence of my children and husband up, certainly took it's toll.

I haven't blogged recently, not for lack of plenty to say, but because of an inability to put how lost I was feeling into words.

Since February, I've made a few positive changes, I think that the Earthquake and surrounding events really helped me put a few things in perspective - if I keep dreaming about the things I want to do, and continually put it off for a 'better time' will my dreams and goals ever become the reality I hope for?

I think not.

In my last blog I mentioned having dread extensions put in, what a liberating feeling to finally not give a toss what anyone else thought of my personal style.

I have had my dreads now since March, with a small break of a week when I had them out to tidy up my natural hair.

Dreads look great, but not when they look like I don't wash :P

I've also started a course with Ayla's Burlesque Academy, how fun to learn a new style of performing arts, some reactions have entertained me, with my husband asking if it meant I was going to have relations with other people.

Really, NOT what burlesque is about. (there are OTHER sorts of places that will cater to that)

The way I would describe it is more like the circus without the big top and animals.

It's comedy and theatrics, contortionists, fire dancers, belly dancers, pasties, hula hoops and so much more... slipping into a character and performing outside your normal social boundaries.

It's re invigorated my relationship with my role as a Weight Watcher's leader, especially when I think about how large I became before I had the courage to change.

Now that I am healthy and vital and eating in a way that is good for my body, and makes me feel good, it really is the most essential ingredient to redefining my self esteem and the confidence to entertain people in such an over the top, theatrical way.


I wonder if Sept - Feb and til now have had similar results in others motivations and desire for a better self?

I kind of hope so....don't you?

I know not everyone desires to be a belly dancer, or twirl tassels on their boobs or even to have florescent hair, but sure we all want better for ourselves? Maybe events like major and destructive Earthquakes can create  that desire to do something about it, instead of constantly whinging on about "I wants"


Me xo